On Getting Old(er)

I am feeling my age.

I can't do stupid/spontaneous things where I won't care about the outcome anymore. For example... sky diving... i remember when i was a young one i was all damn i want to do that (once i can afford it) yayyayay jump off a plane yay! Now... i'm like...ehhh no thanks, don't want to risk my life... rather spend the $ on normal things like on food or apparently a 500$ vacuum.

I can't go all out clubbing anymore in fear of someone taking a freaking picture of me and it being posted on myspace. Who started the whole camera in the club phase anyway? Do you know how retarded that is? I mean everyone is dancing and drunk and you all want to get together and pose for a freaking picture. Do you know what a bright ass flash does to a drunk person?! Yeesh...
Plus all the drunk fat people bumping into me...ehh.. no tolerence for that anymore, i just want to hit them. and all the dirty sweaty icky people in the dark....damn how was clubbing ever fun...

Actually, I can't even get drunk anymore. Well... I can, off of one drink. Thanks to no more HH.... thanks to not having friends... I digress.. so yeah, one drink. and it's not even a funny happy drunk, it's like, oh shit i'm tired i need to go home and sleep right now drunk. why!? why?! is it because of my tolerance?! is it because my 27 yr old brain can't handle the dizziness? Forget the meaning of life, what is the meaning of growing older??

Now... since I can't drink and dance for fun... I should be doing older more sophisticated activities right? Sipping latte at a cafe somewhere... playing golf/tennis... uh... um... what other sophisticated activities are there? damn don't tell me having kids is the ultimate sophisticated activity!?

See... so i'm stuck, I don't know what i should be doing for "fun" anymore (besides watch anime, and no, i will never ever grow out of that.)

Advice people... advice.

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What Analysts analyze on their free time:

I've calculated and "analyzed" that if i keep at the rate on which i'm paying my CC bills i will be completely CC debt free by May of 2009.

....MAY OF 2009!!!!!

That's less than 2 years away. Not bad, but not good either. I've really tried to lower my spending habits, i.e. no more expensive clothes, make-up for no reason....uh that's all i can think of right now. One thing I have not been able to stop doing is NOT eating out. Damn why do I have to be such a good cook in just four things?! Those four things include rice and ramen noodles.

But the more i think about it the more i'm excited about what I can do in 2 years... because truthfully after those bills are paid off i'm going to have madddddddd $$ in the b@nk $0n.

I miss travelling so much, but i know that in 2 years i'll be able to go on, not one, but a lot of awesome trips... AND not have to worry about CC debt.

People always say, "debt" will always be there, yeah sure, but CC debt definitely does not have to be there ALL the time. I can definitely live without that sort of stress thank-you-very-much. So I think taking a trip now while this huge thing is hanging over my head is soooOOo not worth it.

In the mean time I've ransacked my brain for "new" things that I can do and won't have to spend loads of $ on. Here's my list:

1. Get better at SC (of course...somehow, some way, i will!)
2. Start learning how to play the guitar. I have the guitar, i have the resources, what the hell is stopping me?!
3. Find more Anime to watch. Any suggestions?
4. KARAOKE! LA! LA! LA! Yeah, this is $ but one disc can last me months. (Takes me awhile to memorize those dayum Vietnamese lyrics)
5. Once i got some really great basic guitar stuff down, start singing (my own words)- Rock star in my own house here i come!
6. Learn how to cook more?! Maybe...
7. Uh hello all these free Museums in D.C. I must check out.
9. DC Zoo
10. Must.Take.More.Pictures
11. BLOG!!
12. Oh yeah, and read.read.read.

Anyone have a list of what they want to do or do more of?

Googlewhore

Hello, my name is Hanh, and i am a Google whore.
It actually just started recently, i mean I've always had a gmail account... last year i signed up for blogger, now i have: gchat; igoogle; greader; gcalendar; gnotebook; gdocuments; sms notifications sent to my cellphone from gcalendar; a new gmail acct; and I'm looking into Orkut looks like a gayspace type deal but without all the 8 year olds?! We'll see... i mean does anyone else use all these products as much as i do?!

I actually miss the whole internet interaction thingy... meet strangers online, see them at the same place everyday to chat... actually get to know them and become friends with them... i mean, do people still do that now a days in chat rooms? or is it all about the hooking up? the whole a/s/l/pic? thing just totally killed it. Now I'm thinking about hooking up the internet to my wii so i can play against other ppl and meet them that way... or starcraft again, but in sc, people only want to talk to you if you're good... and i'm not....hmmm what else is out there now a days??

In other news, we finally got a full size length mirror so now i can check out my awsomeness all at once without having to climb ontop of the toilet.

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E: dudeeee i totally forgot about Kphooey's birthday, i'm sorry dude! happy birthday and rock on!! (oh young 1)

On the look out for FOOD:

It is true, I've led a sad life. There are a lot of foods I didn't get to eat until I was working and semi out of college. In my family, there was no such thing as eating out at restaurants- not with 7 kids. Even when my older brother and sister had a job they never took me out to eat!! WHAT!! So when I made enough money I pretty much spent it all on food... what can I say, food is my first love.

Even with money I didn't get to experience a lot of food since I came from a small city. I did find all the local yumyums and finally realized small mom and pop restaurants had way better food than the big chains. There are two types of food that I think about now and then and actually feel a little sad that I didn't have a chance to eat it when i was younger.

One is SUSHI... man, I can still hardly afford sushi dinners... now a days I see h.s. kids all up in those restaurants and I think wth!??? Yeah, I'm pretty bitter that I came from big poor family.

The second food is girl scout cookies... people always always talked about girl scout cookies, i never got to taste them until i started a real full time job!! I didn't even know what those stupid boxes looked like... i never had a girl scout come knocking on my door selling those suckers. Anyway, come the job and a mother is selling it for her daughter- i figured they HAD to be good, everyone talked about them, and2.50 a box?? MAD CHEAP!! So i bought 5 boxes...and ate them all... and then learned that that drug only came around like once a year. So the next year i stocked up and bought 10 boxes!!!!!!! Man, thinking back... i can remember how happy and pudgy i was... mmm...

After that first job, no one sold girl scout cookies to me (again)...which was weird, because, we moved to a better neighborhood... and we all know girl scouts come from the better neighborhoods!! Anyway... i didn't think about them damn cookies again until this year. When i heard people in the office talking about it, and telling each other that their boxes came in. Man I was sad... I was SO SAD. Ask Mr Man T. I talked about it... which caused him to steal a half eaten box from his job, but whatever! I was so happy when i saw that box...but still sad that i couldn't buy all the different flavors and knew i had to savor that box so i ate like 3... and put the box away.

Come last weekend when we had to go to Walmart for some diet stuff and Hallelujah!!! Girl scouts selling girl scout cookies outside the freaking store (i don't know how they landed that location). So the little hyperactive girls were like, WANNA BUY SOME GIRL SCOUT COOOOKIES?!?! ::SMILESMILESMILE:: and i'm like YESSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!

and now here i am trying to eat girl scout cookies and type in my blog about my love for them.

i think my keyboard is broken, honey what did you do to it?!?!!!

oh yeah, so the point of this post is that if anyone knows of any food that you think i may have not tried or eaten yet, please please please let me know so i can leave this darkness behind me forever.

Thanks.

Depressed and Suicidal, Every Monday - Friday, 8:45A.M, 1:20PM, 5:30PM

Since I'm older and more "mature" now, I try to keep up with current events so that I don't look like I live in a box and have imaginary friends. My source of choice? http:://news.yahoo.com. (Sorry Google, your news page just doesn't do it for me). Well every time I'm done reading the articles I want to cry and cry and wonder why I do this to myself and how the world hasn't totally blown up yet or that there are dead bodies at my door.

People chopping each other up and sticking them in an oven? Check.

Natural disasters that happen to our own country that no one cares about? Check.

No fucking respect for the already dead? Check.

Still no peace in the middle east? Check.

People who give a shit about celebrities' lives? Check.

It's all super depressing to me... Every time I'm done with the world news, I'm heartbroken for the people who will never have a chance at living a life without fear of being raped, jailed or killed. Everybody still wants to rule the world. A world where one can lavish in alcohol and look like a superstar while another is drowning in alcohol and looks like death.

A world where children sew clothes for grains of rice where people spend hundreds of dollars on the same clothes.

A world where sex is sold for a profit.

And a profit is lied about to benefit the already wealthy.

Who wants to rule this world?

You can have it. Back to my box and talented cartoonist/blogger!

Hip-hip!

edit: I think if zombies really existed, people would really think about killing one another.